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40 days of Bikram/Baptiste yoga complete!

When I walked in the door tonight, I found this sweet note and bottle of wine from my man and babies:) They make me smile. Yoga makes me smile. And I’m learning to smile about alopecia… as I’ve mentioned before, I started this blog as a way to cope and to document my journey of loss and growth. One small part of the physical body may be gone temporarily, but I know now that I haven’t lost anything. As difficult as this can be at times, I know this experience is only about growth… forty days ago I did not have this outlook.



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First weekend of Yoga Tree Teacher Training: Friday night intro and Saturday/Sunday afternoons were spent learning about bones! Since I studied architecture and haven’t had any courses in anatomy, it was a bit of an eye opener for how little I actually know about the skeletal system.

I started this blog as a way to cope with alopecia and to document my journey of loss and growth. One small part of the physical body may have left temporarily, but as difficult as it can be at times, I know now that I haven’t lost anything. This whole experience is about growth; expanding the circle and building a new way of life. One weekend into yoga school and I’m so excited for the possibilities.

Beautiful and inspiring:


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kali ma.


Labor Day Weekend… completed days 22, 23 and 24 of my 40 day goal of Bikram/Baptiste yoga! On day 24, I stopped at the grocery store on my walk home feeling great, but unfortunately had a horrible experience. The woman ahead of me in line to check-out lingered awhile after she paid. She was an uncomfortable foot away from me and I could feel her blatant stare. Figuring she was just taking her sweet time to pack up her bags and go, I was stunned when a derogatory comment about my head scarf, (and another woman’s she’d seen that day), came out of her mouth. I was at a loss for words, I could feel my blood start to boil as my cheeks turned even more red from just leaving hot yoga…so I simply said that I was sick and the other woman probably was as well, then turned back to face the cashier. I assumed I’d hear some kind of apology or words of remorse for her hurtful comment, but she just kept going. My genes from my mom’s fiery side arose, but I dug deep, took a deep breath and found my dad’s calmer side in me as I turned and politely told her to please stop talking. This time she was stunned and walked away. The poor cashier was a kid and looked equally as shocked as I was. He kept apologizing, but I kept assuring him that it was not his fault at all. We both couldn’t believe what had just happened.

When life gives you lemons, make lemonade. When life gives you limes, make margaritas. When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile.

It’s 2013. Unfortunately, cancer is a common disease and hair loss is a very common side effect of treatment. One in fifty people have alopecia and there are other sicknesses that cause hair loss. Not always, but full head scarves, especially the style that I was wearing, (I purchased it from a chemo scarf website), typically signifies a disease. It saddens me that this woman was that insensitive to feel the need to verbalize her negative comment. I walked home and then got teary once I told my fiance what happened. He got me to laugh about it. We took a family walk and I felt much better. Words can be hurtful, but how you react to them determines how they will effect you. I had shared my story on Facebook for the first time a few days before and received really supportive messages. After our walk, I sat down to read them again and either I accidentally deleted the post, or maybe my son did while playing with my phone, but they were gone. I was surprised how sad I was about it or maybe it was just the earlier experience at the grocery store, but I realized it’s another lesson on impermanence. Clinging to words whether positive or negative is attachment and I was reminded again of the importance of letting go.

On another note, I decided to go to yoga school. It’s back to school this week and I am very excited! So inspiring:




My mom gave me this yoga mat with an image of Kali Ma – the goddess of time and change that takes away the darkness from any devotee who strives in the path of perfection. Perfect is relative. I’ve always been drawn to wabi sabi, the Japanese design aesthetic that is centered upon beauty in imperfection. Nothing lasts, nothing is finished and nothing is perfect. Wabi sabi.

Everything happens for a reason. I’m a firm believer in that you have to experience the negative in order to truly appreciate the positive; every experience shapes and will continue to reshape who you are. As difficult as alopecia is, I can honestly say that I am grateful for it. It’ll be awhile until it evens out, but my hair is slowly starting to grow back and I credit it to nutritional changes, daily meditation and yoga practice. Namaste Kali Ma.



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10 days down of my 40 days of Bikram/Baptiste Power Yoga! Red Dragon Yoga has turned into my ‘church’ and ‘medicine.’ I am very grateful for this outlet as it has been therapeutic for both mind and body. One of my yoga instructors recommended a few yoga poses to alleviate anxiety/stress that I want to share… too tired to paraphrase, so I’ll just cut and paste her message:

A pleasure to see you in class today and thank you for sharing with me! I hope you are feeling strong and it is so great that as a new Mom – you are able to get to yoga class! This is fantastic. When faced with difficult situations and stress, our bodies respond with a series of physical reactions. The Result – instant mind/body reactions like irritability and fatigue – and possibly even more serious health concerns. While we can’t control all that happens in life, we can work on our reactions. Because yoga helps reacquaint us with our emotional and physical needs, it provides an excellent means of stress prevention. Any regular yoga practice will ease anxiety, but here are some specific suggestions that may be helpful for you:

1)      Incorporate some stimulating postures such as Virabhadrasana (Warrior Pose) and Bhujangasana (Cobra Pose) to energize the body and build strength.

Virabhadrasana: yogajournal.com/poses/1708

Bhujangasana: yogajournal.com/poses/471

2)      Incorporate restorative poses for stress relief. Connecting with the rhythm of the breath while resting in Savasana (Corpse Pose) and Supta Baddha Konasana (Reclining Bound Angle Pose) will help both body and mind to deeply relax. Try to hold these for at least 10 minutes each.

Savasana: yogajournal.com/poses/482

Supta Baddha Konasana: yogajournal.com/poses/663

Other Recommended Restorative Poses:

Supta Badda Konasana (Reclined Bound Angle Pose) yogajournal.com/poses/663

Viparita Karani (Legs Up The Wall Pose) yogajournal.com/basics/1140

Jathara Parivartanasana (Revolved Abdomen Pose) yogajournal.com/practice/1521

Don’t hesitate to ask me for help at any time. It is always great to see you in class! I can see how hard you are working. Namaste, Daisy

I hope you find these poses helpful and it provides some time for your mind to let go of the anxiety and stress associated with alopecia. Take good care!



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I set a goal of forty consecutive days of Bikram/Baptiste yoga. I started last night. It was my first hot yoga class in almost a year and it kicked my ass. I slept twelve hours, (well, with breastfeeding every 3ish hours). I was really nervous while walking to the studio that my head scarf might fall off during ustrasana or any inversion, (head-upside-down poses)…  unnecessary anxiety that something might happen. The instructor started the class off with the reminder: ‘Be gentle with yourself. Try not to judge yourself. You are here to let go and allow yourself time to appreciate all that you are in this moment.’ And with that, in a room full of floor-to-ceiling mirrors, I managed to enjoy a ninety minute practice and not have a single thought about hair.

Be like water. Flow around the rocks in life. -Baron Baptiste


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